It makes me shiver sometimes.
Lately this somewhat depressing thought has also given me a spirit to life, if not just to get out of bed in the morning. I wondered about my life so far, how I've been wasting my life lately (that's probably due to depression, mostly), how I am planning to waste my life waking up every morning to go and get educated, and later to make money to end up being dead anyway.
To put it in words, I guess I sometimes wish my life were just a TV show and I get to watch it as exciting things happen but it's not me that has to do anything. And that maybe I can do other things when I'm bored with that TV show. Applying that to the real life means I should just do things that I can enjoy, things that are significant. But what is the use? I am still going to die anyway. Maybe I can go and see the world, but how would that be significant when I am dead and my life no longer exist?
"How's that going to do me any good?". I am too selfish.
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