"Just because she comes off strong doesn't mean she didn't fall asleep crying; and even though she acts like everything is alright... maybe, just maybe, she's really good at lying but i love her.
God, i always knew you would do this to me. thanks for at least telling me the truth
(eventually).
I don't want people feeling bad for me anymore. i don't want your fucking pity. i'm just so sick of pretending. ale says my smiles aren't real anymore. i'm going to have to find a way to convince you that i'm doing just FINE without you, thank you very much. even if it's not the truth.
I haven't really been the same since and it hurts me deeply. you will never be able to understand what it feels like to be this empty and carry a heart so heavy. i know in the future i'll have to look back on this journal and read the captured memories of a ME, who's all hope was lost, and i don't want to. but i've done the best i can considering my upbringing.
I think i lost someone really important in my life, and i don't know wether i should continue my act of 'i don't give a fuck' or actually walk after them. i think ever since i stopped caring, it's hard for me to start now. apologizing isn't as easy as i thought.life is too fast for me to keep up with, and i'm having a hard time upholding my play and work life. i need something reassured for me that it'll always be there, because i'm afraid that if i keep this up i'll be left standing alone and i won't even notice.
FootNote ~ how i wish i could press 'rewind'.
